Twisted (pgs 184-250)

Summary:
Tyler woke up one Friday afternoon and looked himself in the mirror, thinking of how his life is going downhill and how he doesn't deserve to live. He begins thinking of different ways to end his life, and decides to go to the school and jump at the bottom of the pool. But once he gets there he talks himself out of it because he doesn't want the little children to see him and be terrified for the rest of their lives at what they saw. Tyler then goes back home and decides that instead he's just going to take his father's money and run away. However, Hannah finds a letter Tyler wrote stating that he was going to run away because he didn't want to go to boarding school, and she said not to act stupid. Before she leaves he says that he won't run away, but lies and takes his father's money. Before he leaves, he grabs his grandfather's sweater out of his father's drawer, and he also holds his father's pistol in his hand. He holds it, considering whether he should shoot or not. Instead he takes the gun and the box of bullets before he leaves the room and grabs his baseball bat out the closet. He gets some baseballs pitched to him and then goes to the lake with Yoda to toss the bullets into the lake, and takes apart the gun and leaves it in his bag. The next day he goes to school telling Chip to beat him up and that he's a punk. The police come to Tyler's home later that day telling him that they've found the kid who was reponsible for the pictures of Bethany and that he will not be punished for that. Later on in the day, however, Tyler's father comes home blaming Tyler for him losing his job, since Mr. Milbury is his boss and also Chip's father.Tyler gets the bat and goes downstairs smashing everything with it and telling his father about how he was going to kill himself or run away. His father asks him why he didn't do either, and Tyler said because his father has already killed him. Tyler spends the rest of the night at Yoda's house and the next night he sees his father sitting outside of their house. He said to Tyler that he couldn't sleep and that he would want Tyler to come back and stay with them. Tyler stays and plays his video game and tries to act wisely while he's playing it. This is how the story ends.
Quote:
"You have screwed up everything. You have a 0.00 GPA in Life. You are a useless f***, a waste of carbon molecules. You are the spawn of a defective sperm and a reluctant egg. You do not deserve to live" (Anderson 190).

Reaction:
Tyler was having this thought one Friday afternoon when he was looking at himself in the mirror. I like how the author used the metaphor of a GPA to describe Tyler's life. He said he has a 0.00 GPA in life, so his life is pretty much going downhill for him, getting worse and worse. I also like how he described his waste of existence as being a waste of carbon molecules. He also stresses the fact that he doesn't deserve to live when he says that the sperm that created his embryo was lacking in something and the egg was acting in opposition of it. In other words, its like he's saying that his existence was a mistake and he doesn't deserve to be alive. This thought also scared me because Tyler is seriously thinking about killing himself. After this quote he thinks of many strategies he could use to kill himself and it sounds like he's going to do it. I was just hoping that he would stick it out and wait for things to get better before he takes the easy way out by killing himself.